Tuesday, October 28, 2008


What is in my mind just now is about truth. We cannot run away from truth actually (I just realize that).

I think why this came to my mind because I've came to know an interesting theologian "Kierkegaard's" who talk about "Subjectivity of truth" and also another theologian in this era, Stephen Tong who talk on "Subjective Truth". Whats the different between this two people?

Subjectivity of Truth it means that whether there is truth in a person or not. Example on my previous post about Nick Vujicic, when he say that his parents trying to convince him that everything is going fine and he say to his parents "How you know?" "Are you in my position (without arms and legs)?" It simply conclude that when a person said something without a substance in it because he is not in that situation. A happy wife whom still have a husband cannot say to a widow whom her husband just past away, "Is ok, don't be too sad. Everything is going fine soon." There is no substance in her words. But if a widow who have gone through a lot of challenges of life as a widow, the other widow will be convince by it because she have the substance and she is the subjectivity of truth.

Subjective truth is talking about something cannot be argued about because it is truth. I like how Stephen Tong illustrate it. 2+2=4 and only "Mr.4" have the right to say that 2+2 is equal to 4 and no others. It is because he is the truth! Just like the air said, if you breath, you have life if you don't breath you will die! The air can say such arrogant words because "he" is truth!! And God is the subjective truth in everything.

It came to my mind when I think back why everything had to go back to God. When talk about facts, reality or truth, we will link back to God. Last time I had this habit when I have conversation with my friends and when they put the element of God into the conversation, I will say "Since you put God in this, I have nothing to say lo." Now I realize that I am wrong because He simply is the Alpha and Omega. It shows that everything is spiritual.

God is truth!

Friday, October 24, 2008

Back to Labuan life

Fuhh!! Back to Labuan. What a journey. I really praise God and give thanks to Him on what He had done. He really made impossible to possible. My flight from Tawau to KK is on 1045 and reach KK at 1135. And my flight from KK to Labuan is 1200. So I had to check-in in KK at least 1115am but that time I was still in my flight.

Yesterday I am trying to online check-in but there is no KK-Labuan check-in online. Sigh!! So I plan a plan B that is to take bus once I reach KK. I also tried when I was in Tawau airport asking whether I can check-in from Tawau or not but cannot. Oh no!!

God grace is far than we can ever thought. I did pray to have a smooth journey (not back Labuan by bus). My heart believe I can go smooth but my mind keep thinking how to go and take bus. HEHE..In Tawau I able to meet my aunt and uncle. Because of them I can sit in front where I can rush down faster once I reach KK. Once reach KK I rush into the counter and the counter closed. And I went to the info desk and ask whether the fligh already flew or not. But the lady said I cannot check-in. So I tell her that I just arrived from Tawau. So she quickly bring me to the counter and help me to check-in.

When I go into the departure hall, I realise that I am going back to the same aeroplane that I took from Tawau with the same stewardess. They look at me and smile. HAHAHA..

Everyone can fly!! Really thank God for everything. When I ponder it while I was on the way back to Labuan, all things really go smooth. Can see God really answered prayer. Even simple prayer without flowerish words. And I spend good time with my aunty and uncle. Chat a lot. When they saw me, they say "Ngi an tai hoi gai"..hahaha..is Hakka.

Gam Chia Shong Di

Wednesday, October 22, 2008


In Tawau now. Realizing that I make some wrong move in this 6 days journey. Do not know why I think that. I thought of that either I should stay longer in KK or back Tawau first then to KK. It just messy in my mind. Anyway, I am happy with my decision.

I spent much sweet and memorable time together with her. Celebrate her belated birthday and my early birthday. Enjoying so much and appreciate each time with her. I feel like I am a Diocesan Staff for pass 2 days. Sit in the office, pretending like doing works (em actually I am) and helping/working with her on her task. What a joy!! And thank God for everything.

More than 4 people when they saw me, they say "you are fat!". I was blur!! Sigh!! How can I got fat?

Well that's all for the updates.


Sunday, October 19, 2008

Mutual Problem

I remember when I fellowship with my friends we came to this person whom have a lot of problems. He even tell my friend that why his friend never say that he got a problem. My friend being straight forward and out of love want to help this person and reply him and say is because his friend have the same problem as you that is why both you them won't have any problem with each other.

Past few days, this thought came into my mind again and I began to ponder it further. I began to think that it is true that two wont walk together unless they agreed. But if two friends came together ( lets say A and B), and A is asking B for opinion, example his actions and etc or even when A is complaining to B. So as good friend, B will certainly comfort A and say something to comfort him. B motive is right in the sense he out of love want to help his friend A. But what if A really wrong in her actions and B say "Yalo Yalo" and start to talk bad on other people. Though motive is right, but because just want to please his friend and did something wrong. B is denying and lying to the moral principle (hmm, guess read a lot from C.S. Lewis).

One pastor told me before if we love some one whether is on courtship or friendship, we will never afraid of losing them. If we tend to afraid, we are bound on it and will compromise to ourself and denying on it.



Longed for this holiday so much. Many reasons I had to have a holiday before continue the last 2 months tough battle.

I am in KK now. Just finish spending some time with her. Which one of the main reason I have this holiday. After KK, I am going back to Tawau, spending time with family. Hope I can have wonderful time relax.

One thing is, I really hope that I can bring my fishing rod together and back Tawau to fish. Oh no, addicted already. HEHE...


Thursday, October 9, 2008

Companionship in Labuan

I'll never expect that a man whom I went to mission trip to interior of Sabah will be my companion and my closest friend I can say in Labuan. First time he talk to me is in a speedboat. Then half way of the journey I was in his car all the way from Ranau to Kuala Sapi. He is a super generous guy. Though in term of aged, he is older than me a lot, maybe 15-20 years? but he call me brother I call him brother too when we meet each other in church with a peace sign.

Really appreciate people like him in my life whom have the same mind set and always agree with each other said and able to learn with each other. Oppss, don't get me wrong that I am gay because I mentioned is a "he". haha.. Well, its always hard to find people like this. Other than my spouse, he is one of them who I can click with.

Guess what, he listen to Stephen Tong sermon as well. He told me, he missed his sermon and teaching a lot. Because of this, we always discussed on the teaching of him. Don't get both of us wrong that have other "gods" is just that we was impressed by his teaching.

What a companionship that I believe God has place in me in Labuan
Me and brother Wong..Hehe

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

"God, if only I have....."

I'll believe everyone said this before God and ask God that "If only I had such things then I can to it." If only I have money, then I won't be struggling, if only I have power, then I won't be bully in work, if only I became a powerful man then people will submit to me, if only I am significant then people trust with what I said so on and so forth.

Well, what is the problem when we ask "IF ONLY"??

We tend to focus what we do not have and as if when we got what we do not have, we can do what we want to do, what we will do or what task are we going to do. Too often we compare with people when that people have what we do not have and give excuses that he can do because he had the things that can make him a success.

We neglected what we have which actually allow us to reach the same results as well. Everyone is different, unique and not the same. Our gifts is different, but we can use what we have to the glory of God. No matter you have 10 talents or 5 talents, if we fully utilize it, at the end we still be praised "You are good and faithful servant."

I was inspired by this guy, Nick Vujicic which I believe we got an email circulation about him. If we really want to compare, I think he is the one who only worth to ask "God, if only". But he did not ask and he did things greater than we did and I do.

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

So, be grateful with what you had

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