Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Don't give up

I spent my Chinese New Year at Rev. Khee Vun house. Thank God for him. Truly enjoyed a lot of blessings from him. He brought me out for wonderful dinner at Sushi King. Hahaha. Then the next day bring me for a reunion dinner in one of the FCC member house. Enjoyed the fellowship with them and with their children especially. I met my primary school teacher whom I always seen her when I were at FCC and also my kingdergarden school principles' son. What a small world ya.

While I was in Rev. KV house, I played with their children. Play Lego. hahaha.. really long time did not play this kind of toys. So I played with his eldest son. One point we could not find one part of the lego. We keep on search and search and the end we found it. Then he tell me that we sure can find it as long as we not give up. Wow, imagine a kids tell me that. His words really encourage me. A little boy know the meaning of not giving up in order to achieve something.


Tuesday, January 27, 2009

And can it be?

One of my favorite hymns. Planned to sing this in my wedding day. hehehe


Monday, January 26, 2009

If only I wait, I would have better one

Last week was a struggle week for me. I've been so childish. I do not know why I will behave like that. I felt not satisfy with things that had happen. Something that unfair to me until the point I ask God, "Where is mine?!" Temptation came to me when I am searching for a laptop and I cannot afford it for time being. I remember when I looking for a laptop, I hear a voice in my heart that saying wait for the timing of God.

I've been very frustrated when I ask God "where is mine?" because all the things I ask is what I need and not what I want. I've been angry to God (I knew I could not) for few days. I tried to understand Him in a more conscious way and more spiritual way but I just overcome my feeling.

I've finally changed my phone for after 5 years using it. I truly love this phone but it getting old and giving a sign that it is dying soon. Is the phone that I hope for so long to get it. Though it is AP but I still satisfy. And though is not a new (used for roughly 4 mths), I got a good deal. Is Sony Ericsson P1i. The feeling of satisfaction is not there. I can afford this phone because of the gifts that I've got in Labuan. I know I am using my ability to buy this phone. I should be very happy but I din't.

I don't treat this as a rebuke but God speak to me in yesterday sermon. God let me see a picture that everything will be different if I wait, if I'm patient and if I include Him in the decision. This lesson really draw me back to Him. His arm never to short to hug me. Once again I felt comfort in His arms. I long for this feeling for so long. This lesson also gave me an answer for my struggle in my seminary life. The sermon were taken in John 2:1-11. Scene will be different if we include God in our life in every decision making. Jesus makes a better wine than the bridegroom.

In the end, I only can say "I'm sorry God."


Sunday, January 18, 2009

Life as Seminarian

Two weeks been here as a Seminarian. Well life as Seminarian is not easy. Don't ever think of those convenient things you can do in a private college or also don't think that it is as hard as local Universities.

My first impression when I were here is like those Christian"pusat pemulihan dadah." 7:30am breakfast, 1:00pm lunch and 7pm dinner. We had to sit down all together 10 person in a table then we can start our meals. Tuesday morning 8am, Chapel service and in the afternoon Anglican Chapel. Wednesday morning pastoral group. Thursday morning at 7am Anglican Service and 1115am Communion Service. Friday morning 8am BM service. Saturday and Sunday go for practical. WOW!!! But, Monday is so call our DAY OFF!!

My second week here I got fever. Keep on resting from Tuesday. Feel like wasting of time because din't make productive time. Really don't like the feeling. Thank God for Nickson whom being so hospitable to me and the caring community here. Once I go out from my room, many people will ask me "are you ok?" or "feeling better?" and etc. Really can feel their genuine love.

These two weeks itself I can really learn a lot of things. All the while I thought I am from Diocese of Sabah and well exposed to many things in terms of ministry o technology and etc but God keep on showing my weakness to me. Pride had been always my struggle and God always bring me back to a humble heart.

Serving in a comfort land for past 18mths now had be a struggle for me but I had overcome it. Every morning I can wake up at 6am go to basketball court, sit there alone and spent my quiet time with God. Each moment hope to feel the renewing touch from Him.

Thats the updates of me here..:P

Picture taken outside of LCMS (Lutheran Church of Malaysia and Singapore) 11th Mile Cheras

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Monday, January 12, 2009

Saturday, January 10, 2009


First time in my life playing bowling and seems like I got talent in this..haha.. Like every game I thought using risk is the important part but seems not to bowling. I've injured on the lower part of my right hand. I cant move my thumb. If I move it, my hand will be painful. I dint know this and I go play basketball the next two day. Hand get even worse. So I share this to my friend whom is a very caring uncle. He pray a short prayer for me in public. Miracle!!! The next morning my hand totally recover without any single pain. This thing seldom happen to me. But it prove that God is a God of healer and He listen when you call.


Wednesday, January 7, 2009

STM life

Life here is getting exciting despite of other area. Met a lot of friends here with different background, denomination, age and character. Meet with this one guy particularly a leader of a Lutheran church in KL, Joe Loon. Much more older than me. Around late 30 I think and he is a professional photographer who work with Nikon before. He is using his gift in God's ministry especially in the area of mission. He often went to mission trip and capture pictures that speak thousand of words which can totally can describe the situation there. He also a humorous guy and a lovely and caring husband and father. His life testimony really impress me. It make me feel that I need to get a Nikon as soon as possible...haha


Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Fix upon Jesus

Remember this hymns that spoke to me, "Turn your eye upon Jesus." One of my favorite hymns.

Today devotion really spoke to me as one of the lecturer was sharing on this passage,
Hebrews 12:1-2 "Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."

Race that marked out for us is like running on the track without lines that make us run not in a straight line. The only thing that can help us to run in straight lines is that we focus on the finish line. This is what the lecturer said.

And my further thoughts is that as we run on track and when we focus on lines on the track, we will lost our focus and we will run slightly slower because our focus is not on the finish line but whether we are running straight or not. If we have one focus that is to finish the race by focusing on the finish line, I believe we will be the first who reach the finish line.

Our focus? of course Jesus

Turn your eyes upon Jesus

Monday, January 5, 2009


Currently in STM now. Thank God for everything. Deep in heart only miss a person whom is my girlfriend. Really that as wide as the sea we've been seperated the more we will feel that we miss each other.

Is a small seminary which not more than 150 students whereby you can really know each other in this 2 days. Once I check-in in the hostel, in my heart said I am proud to serve in Diocese of Sabah with much more high tech infrastucture and enviroment. My daily challenge in here is to be humble mainly because I am one of the guy whom have more exposure. Stuggling now but I believe God is working in my life in shaping and molding my charater.

Another good news I want to share is that my youngest brother had joined into fulltime ministry. Wow, my parents had gave their 100% to the Kingdom of God and both of them were happy with the decision that we had made. My dad tell me as long as I dint give up and he will support me. Thank God for working in my family.

Do pray for me. I need that a lot. I am still settling down here.

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